Wednesday, February 27, 2008

affection at home and out and about....

I had a conversation recently that honestly has me puzzled at the double standards shown by people. I was talking to a lady - straight, married, one jr high age daughter. Down the street is a lesbian with a daughter in the same grade. The complaint was that lesbian and her partner hug and kiss in front of the kid and they sleep in the same bed even though they are not married. Yet the person telling me this lived with her husband before they got married and I am willing to bet they hugged and kissed in front of the kid and most likely even other peoples kids.
So the same behavior in a same gender couple is inappropriate while it is perfectly acceptable in the opposite gender couple. And, mind you this is behavior taking place inside the home. I was stunned into not being able to comment at the time. I am a very affectionate person - my whole family is. Hugs and kisses are how we say "hi", "i missed you", "i love you", "good to see you", "take care", "good-night", "I'm happy for you", "I'm sad for you", "I wish I could help", and anything else we can think of. I don't censor myself about hugs and kisses like that. I am a lesbian but I don't give any thought to hugs and kisses with anyone I care about no matter what gender or sexual orientation. As long as the other person is comfortable with that level of affection then I'm good. There is nothing sexual about it.
I find it completely ridiculous that the whole issue was that the lesbians daughter would find it okay to kiss another girl... wow - if the daughter should turn out to be gay she won't have to go through all the self hatred and stress of trying to come to terms with discovering you are the worst kind of different a person can be. That would be a total shame wouldn't it?

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Idiots & morons or just not thinking?

Okay - I know now is the "me" generation. I know that we have lost all patience for anything. We fidget and fuss if our lunch takes 2 minutes to warm up in the microwave. I was probably in junior high when we got our first microwave - so having warm food cook that fast was just amazing. Before that I was too young to pay attention - how long did it take to make a "fast" dinner? half hour? hour? A lot longer than a "fast" dinner is now. I remember being amazed at pizza delivery... they would make pizza and drive it to our house? really? Now I don't even pick up the phone - I use the internet... order my pizza and before I know - it's here. Life is good.
So here I sit this evening and the weather forecast is call for "thunder freezing rain" tonight... after we got a sleety snowy mix today that makes it look like a giant slushie threw up outside... so if they are right, we are going to have a thunderstorm and the rain is going to freeze when it hits the ground. Beautiful. I live in St Louis, Mo for and for those that don't know it - we got hit with a major ice storm last year that was just insane. Well first in late summer we had a major wind storm... on the news they said it was the great tree pruning... there are about 6 different routes I can take to leave my house and get to a major road. Of the 6, 4 were blocked by trees down... not limbs - trees... 100 year old trees laying across the road - everywhere. I lost about a 90 year old elm to that storm although it didn't split until a couple weeks later. So then we get this major ice storm and my other elm of the same age lost probably a good 1/3 of it's limbs and somehow lived. Most of the city was without power for a week after both of those incidents. I'm not looking forward to "thunder freezing rain".
So what is my gripe? You know I have one... this isn't random... I decide to run to the store this afternoon before the ice... it is a St Louis tradition. We go buy bread, milk and eggs on the eve of winter weather. Well I bought bread, lunchmeat and alcohol but I don't have a family to feed so I'm allowed... I drive to the store which is just two long blocks away and the roads are passable but slush covered... and ice pellets are falling out of the sky. I find a parking space and walk to the store. I go to cross from the parking lot to the store and the people in cars are not even slowing down for the stop sign by the door so the people walking are stuck standing out in the weather waiting. This is a level parking lot - there is no reason for them to not stop - except that they don't want to wait an extra 15 seconds in their warm sheltered car so that the people wading through the slush, getting hit with ice pellets, can cross to cover and get out of the weather.
15 seconds... 30 tops... but it is too much to ask for most people. They don't notice or care that the person walking is getting rained, snowed, or sleeted on while they are warm and dry in their vehicle... they don't care that there is a big red stop sign and a pedestrian crossing...
So honestly - why have we become so self centered that we don't pause to consider that person out in the weather... that we can't slow down for 3 seconds to allow a stranger to merge safely on the highway... that we can't just take a moment to be considerate of another person and do for them what you would do for a beloved parent or grandparent. You don't even have to be actually nice and hold the door for someone... just be a little considerate.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Way too much working this weekend!

Uggghhh - yes, this was major release weekend at work and very busy. I'll get some pretty decent OT hours from it so that is pretty cool... So what kind of fun is going on? My chihuahua is doing great recovering from knee surgery. It has been a little over a week and already she is getting around better than she was before the surgery.
Spring training has started - WooHoo! Baseball will soon be back and I can't wait. So what about the steroids thing? going to be interesting to see what happens next. I think Roger Clemens didn't do much to help himself with his testimony. Him and McNamme testified to total opposite versions was no big surprise. Clemens was not as convincing as McNamme was though and I think that hurt the Rocket in the court of public opinion.
At the same time - major kudos to Paul Lo Duca - I think his handling of it was just right. I'm sorry - I messed up - I wish I hadn't - lets move on. We don't need details, we don't need drama, we really just want our sports heros to do it the right way and discourage kids from juicing. That's all I want any how. We're all people and we all make mistakes. But part of life is being strong enough to admit that, take your lumps and move on. I don't know about anyone else but I am ready to start concentrating on what will happen in baseball this season - Go Cardinals!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

check out this new ad type

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

spaghetti wrestling!

Tonight I got out of the house for a couple hours for the first time since Mo had surgery. I went to Jacks iron horse to watch spaghetti wrestling. It was a blast as always and it was awesome to see everyone and hang out for a while. The ladies were hot and the wrestling even hotter. If you want to know what I'm talking about you really need to come out to jacks any wed night at 7 and experience the fun for yourself. Jacks is on St charles rock road just west of 70/270 interchange, on the left the next parking lot after car credit city. Used to be called Cadillac Jacks. Ever Wed night, they pul out the kiddie pool, dump 100 pounds of spaghetti noodles into it and two hotties in bikinis get in for 5 rounds of wrestling... A $10 tip allows you to be a coach which is what I like to do... the coach oils up the wrestler in between rounds and removes any stray noodles from where ever they might have migrated.... For a $5 tip, you can be a judge and have a front row seat for the match... after each round you vote for your winner... It is a blast and you can find me there almost every wed night.
So it was nice to get out of the house for a little while. It's been a busy week at work so I haven't had a whole lot of time to pay attention to the news. I know the steroids thing is going on but I haven't heard any updates on it. I'm curious if we'll ever know the truth. Noth much else in the news has caught my interest other than Microsoft making an offer for yahoo. I totally hope that doesn't happen and so far it looks like it won't. I'm a unix geek and never been a fan of microsoft. I wish I could say I'm on a mac writing this but I have a budget and a mac doesn't fit into it... So I am indeed on a windows machine - I actually like windows XP more than I've liked any of their other OS except maybe win 2000... I've used windows 2000 pro at work for well I guess about 8 years now... It works pretty good. I've had windows XP and win 2000 pro at home for several years and that works good for me as well. My old laptop with win 2000 on it just died so i went to tigerdirect.com to find a new one... found a thinkpad t43 with win xp on it for $500 and grabbed that right up. I've been using a t43 as my work laptop fo about a year and a half and I love it. So now I have another one for my personal laptop. Life is good!

Monday, February 11, 2008

internet money makers or bad jokes?

I mean come on folks... some of this crapola is just exactly that... I saw an ad that said invest 25 cents and make $4000 a month... ummm yeah - I'm right on that. In fact let me bring you 10 rolls of quarters and lets see what that turns into... If I remember right a roll of quarters is $10 so each roll would be 160,000 a month so my 100 bucks should magically turn into 1.6 million a month... yeah - that is going to happen. And tomorrow morning I will wear my underwear outside my jeans and fly to work. Never mind if it is 10 degress outside.
I saw another ad that says "Widow finds something that works!!!!!!" What? A vibrator? For real - that is what popped into my head... who writes this stuff?
Here let me write my own - "Homeless man finds free warm bed and food. For just $69 you can learn his secret method for earning free room and board"... would you click and pay me the $69? What is his method? Simple do something very inappropriate in front of the worst possible audience.... that is the most I'm going to say - if you can't fill in the blanks with something that would get any human tossed in jail for the night then come back when you've had a little more life experience.
No kidding, right?

You remember back in the day when you would see the ads in the newspaper saying something along the lines of send us $10 and a SASE (self addressed stamped envelope for those of you too young to know about snail mail) and we'll show you how to make hundreds of dollars a day stuffing envelopes..... and if you were indeed silly enough to send them $10 you would have gotten some kind of note or photocopy depending on what year you fell for this, telling you to rent a po box and put the same ad in the paper and then send each person the same instructions to put an ad in the paper and send these instructions to the people that reply. That is indeed the scam.

Would I like to make money online? Of course! But not by scamming people out of their hard earned $$$$. I'm sorry - I believe that what comes around goes around... so I just can't do that stuff. Sadly there are way too many out there that can. When I do find the magic route to online income - I will share it and I won't charge a dime for it. I want other people to succeed and I want to build up lots of good karma... so until next time - remember - if it sounds to good to be true - hold your nose because there is something stinky nearby!

Peace out,
Carol

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Chihuahua update!

My Chihuahua that just has knee surgery is doing much better today. She is putting a little weight on the leg at a time and moving around much better. No I can just put her on the floor and she'll go do what she needs to do - much better than me trying to guess what she needs! Now I'm exhausted from the last couple days of keep an eagle on on every twitch she makes. Think I'm going to sleep good tonight! Thanks to all that sent well wishes for her - very much appreciated.

Saturday, February 9, 2008

My chihuahua had surgery

Yesterday, my one of my Chihuahua's, Baby Mo (usually just call her Mo or Mo-Dee-Doe or Molicious or Mo-dee or booger dog... you get the idea) had knee surgery. For real - she had a floating kneecap and it started hurting her. Well since she came home from the vet yesterday she has been on a pillow next me. She hasn't complained a bit. I tell her not to lick and she stops. She doesn't try to move around. I bring her food and water and carry her over to her potty pad. But the thing that is killing me is she doesn't let me know anything... I have no idea when she needs or wants something because she is so quiet. That is good and all but I hope I am doing okay by her and getting her what she needs or wants relatively promptly. I know she is in pain and I totally respect how well she has handled herself. But giving me a little clue when she has some kind of need would really help a lot too. At least I would feel more confident that I'm doing good by her... grrrr....

More on Steroids

The other sport I follow that has major steroids issues is pro cycling. And actually I was a fan of the tour de france before Lance Armstrong won his first one. That was so exciting when he won. That first year he wasn't in the favorites - I'd have to look back at the rider field to remember who was. I just know he kind of came out of no where and was very exciting to watch. All the years of him and Jan Ullrich fighting it out. That was good stuff... The one year when Jan flew off the road on a turn, Lance slowed down until he got back with the group - you don't take advantage of stuff like that. It doesn't seem right to me that a sport with a known set of "gentleman's rules" would have so much issues with doping.
the deal last year with Floyd Landis - that makes no sense to me. Honestly. Taking "T" one day in the middle of the tour, winning the stage so you know your going to be tested for sure - it doesn't play right. Floyd is no rookie - everyone knows the stage winner gets tested. Not only that but my understanding is that testosterone has to be taken over a period of time to be of any use. A single dose doesn't do anything. It isn't like when they boost the red blood cells - that is immediate. "T" is not immediate. So why do it? I don't know and maybe it is foolish of my be I don't think he did. I think he was as stunned by those test results as the rest of the world was. I can't explain what happened or why but I don't think Floyd or any of the people around him would be stupid enough to go along with that. Do I think Lance Armstrong was guilty of doping? No I do not. And if he did - I very much hope it never ever comes out. Why? Because he is more than just the man Lance Armstrong. He is the cancer survivor Lance Armstrong and that is way bigger than one man. He gives hope to people worldwide and it would be a terrible if anything ever tarnished what he has done. So while I hated to see his racing career end - I totally respected that decision. I think had he kept going - what happened to Floyd would have happened to him. Yes I know - that means I think Floyd was set up - and indeed that is probably my leading theory about what "really" happened. We'll never know but it is the only thing that makes sense to me.

Friday, February 8, 2008

steroids are for losers

I'm sorry - it's true.

Baseball has been my favorite sport all my life. It was my Moms favorite sport. We watched Cardinals games together. I grew up thinking the guys on the field were larger than life. I had no idea they were just regular humans with a skill to play the game. The Cardinals won it all in 1982 - for the entire playoffs that year - me and Mom got to watch every game. Dad didn't complain once about losing control of his TV for that magic October. After all the TV was his domain the rest of the year! Had I heard of steroids by then? I think probably so - I was a jock and spent a fair amount of time in the weight room. Would I have connected them to MLB? Not a chance... of course in those days the Cardinals were all about speed... on the basepaths - I have no clue about speed in the clubhouse... I still think a double steal is the next coolest play to a suicide squeeze that there is...
Yeah, I'm a lifelong baseball fan. The steroids thing makes me sick. When Big Mac told congress he wasn't there to talk about the past - I felt ill. One of my heroes. yes I'm older now and I know that baseball players are just regular guys that happen to be very good at my favorite game. But damn... that was as loud and clear of an admission of guilt as it gets. And a wimpy trying to get out of it without really lying one at that. I do admire that he was willing to make himself look bad rather than tell a lie. I'll give brownie points for that. But the he-man thing to do would have been to be honest. If he used then he should have said - I did it, I'm not proud of it, I'm sorry.
Okay, I get that it is illegal... but it wasn't banned by baseball. True baseball shouldn't have to say that illegal drugs are a no-no. But my understanding is many players got their scripts in mexico where it isn't illegal. So if it isn't illegal where your at when you did it, and baseball didn't ban it... why do you have to lie? Because even so you still knew it wasn't right.
So what up with Roger Clemens? Who knows? I really hope he hasn't been lying to the world. I really hope he isn't arrogant enough to think he could do it, lie and get away with it. I don't know the man, he never played for the Cardinals so I don't have much invested in him one way or the other. Albert Pujols on the other hand - yes he is a hero of mine. Yes I know I'm 40 years old and baseball players are just people... but I watch the game and I'm a little girl hanging out with my Momma again... When the early rumor came out that Albert was in the Mitchell report - I felt sick all over again. I was just like No - it just can't be. Luckily for me when I heard the rumor the actual report had already come out and I read it then and saw he wasn't listed. Whew!
thing is we think we know our players. We watch them on the field, we hear about the wonderful causes they raise money for, they give back to the community. We want them to be the perfect people and they just aren't. They are in an ultra competitive job that can get them replaced anytime if they fail to perform. I understand they have families and want all the best for their families and the best way to get all the best is to be the best. And if your going against guys that are juiced - the deck is stacked against you. I get it. I don't like it, but I get it.
Here is my thought for you. What are you going to tell your parents? What are you going to tell your kids? If you juice - you will get caught.
What about Barry Bonds? What will baseball do about that situation if it turns out he used and lied? You know Barry had strikes against him to start with. My biggest issue with him was anytime I saw him in front of a camera - my impression was that he looked down at the rest of the world as lessor beings. I don't like that attitude. Now to be fair - I've seen some stuff with him more recently that he does come across more humble - slightly. We want our heroes to be humble... we want to hear they are just regular people that have the gift to play a game we love and play it very well. At the same time we want them to be super heroes flying in to save the day in the bottom of the 9th. But deep down - we know - they are people to - and people make mistakes. For goodness sakes though - be strong enough to admit your shortcomings. We like to forgive our heroes unless we feel like they are playing us for fools...
So my advice to Roger Clemens - if your innocent - stay the course... if your not - confess, grovel and retire before the results on the test on all those syringes come out. But what do I know? I'm just an evil lesbian computer geek...